Old Draft: "Fuck It"

Today was a pretty uneventful day, other than I attempted to choke back tears and missing a few that spilled over onto my face this morning. This evening on my commute back home it was the same thing, only this time I didn't bother choking anything back.  My life is a mess and coming apart in every direction. I wish I could make it better. I just want to love and give love so easily as I know I can, but its hard when at the same time you feel as if you are fighting for your own rights because no one else will. Sometimes you have to just say, "Fuck it." This is one of those times. I would probably be in a much happier place if I could just say, "Fuck it" and not let a single thing bother me.  Damnit, why can't I do that!?